First of all, is it necessary to say something 
                about me? I don't like to remember my bitter past when I 
                was a prestigious Muslim.
                Like any typical ignorant Muslim, I was very much Islam-oriented. 
                ... A man who couldn't tolerate any brickbat on his beliefs 
                and learned to be suspicious and prejudicial on critics and criticism. 
                . I suspended all allegations brought by critics with much contempt 
                and disdain. I too believed Islam's prophet is a man of 
                exalted morals, I am taught to live like him, to love him., to 
                walk on this earth like he did. All those were acceptable until 
                I learned to doubt and began to look upon things differently.
              
I learned history from an Islamic perspective, 
                but after the completion, a simple thought provoked me to see, 
                how could this same story be if I rewrite it in a lost pagan's 
                perspective?
                I think it was the beginning of my enlightenment. I refused to 
                play the part of a victim any more and a lot of courage was needed 
                for the purpose.
              I don't exactly remember what wrote 
                doubt in my mind. May be it is Lord Buddha and his teachings or 
                a glance at Jesus and his sufferings.
              I learned look unto my own inner self through 
                Buddha. Then quite shockingly I realized my beloved prophet is 
                a misfit. He failed to show me anything other than the dark side 
                of human nature.
                Those who trumpet the greatness of Islam's prophet have 
                a responsibility to prove it by referring him and his life. Is 
                there any lesson of mercy in Islam's prophet that can be 
                compared with what Jesus showed to his executioners even in excruciating 
                pain of crucifixion? Where is the moral of renunciation in him 
                when we have Lord Buddha as a role model of ultimate renunciation?
                Muslims are quite eloquent on familial values and keen to find 
                fault with others especially west. I challenge any Muslim to show 
                me any virtue in their prophet's familial life that can 
                be blindly followed!
                I left this prophet and his teachings, but this is not a praiseworthy 
                act, when in fact I should be ashamed of being a part of this 
                cult at least for quite some period of my life in the past. A 
                repentance and apology is due. So let me try my best. I will be 
                an active member of this forum and contribute what I can to end 
                this stupidity.
              I dedicate this testimony to the whole of 
                suffering humanity; I dedicate this to those innocent kids massacred 
                in Beslan. Shame on you Muslim, you still taste their blood sweet.! 
              
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